It's not...a matter of not wanting to change. I do, to a point--I know people find it irritating that I can't help but put everyone else first, but I can't change that so drastically that I-...
['-decide I want to live'.]
[Ardyn sighed and dragged his hand down his face in the universal and eternal sign of frustration before leaning back in his chair.]
If Honerva doesn't want this to continue, over this or anything else, that is her choice to make or not. I can live with that, and it would hardly be the worst I've ever felt. [At least she'd still be alive was the bitter remark Ardyn nearly had to bite his tongue to stop himself from finishing with.] But I--it's selfish and terrible of me, but I don't want to have to do this alone. There's no one else I can tell, and keeping it to myself forever is just going to destroy me.
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['-decide I want to live'.]
[Ardyn sighed and dragged his hand down his face in the universal and eternal sign of frustration before leaning back in his chair.]
If Honerva doesn't want this to continue, over this or anything else, that is her choice to make or not. I can live with that, and it would hardly be the worst I've ever felt. [At least she'd still be alive was the bitter remark Ardyn nearly had to bite his tongue to stop himself from finishing with.] But I--it's selfish and terrible of me, but I don't want to have to do this alone. There's no one else I can tell, and keeping it to myself forever is just going to destroy me.