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none that they taught me 4 sure

i did play a game of screw up on purpose 4 a while tho, like switch words around so theyre an insult & act innocent about it

so like paedagogus perfectus es = "ur a perfect teacher" but can b mixed w/ podex perfectus es or "ur a complete asshole"

& u should know what u said c'mon

that reminds me of the names garleans have for their abilities and places

alea lacta est
ignis est
terminus est
altius
citius

porta praetoria
castrum abania
memoria misera

stuff like that. lots of est
est est est everything est

idk what part
the stuff about soul hurting
andor the part about distance?

i dont want to echo so distance is safe

weird. a lot of those i recognize. this isnt the 1st time its come up either... maybe a bunch of different worlds just share a root old language or something

staying away. is it for you or for us

it comes from the ancients in my world i think
idk for your world tho
but ours r connected so maybe shared root?

both
it hurts
hard 2 be myself again after
confusing & invasive
sucks a lot

the other world w/ shared words isnt linked i think. otherwise id figure that was all. its p weird

u know no 1 blames u for that
if it was me, itd b worth it
but u decide 4 urself

yeah its v weird

no1 so far
its hard 2 believe im worth that
but theres prob not a lot left i could see that would be more upsetting than i have
so ig theres that
or i hope theres that?

im a little scared next time some1 wont be ok with it. that itll hurt them somehow
idc if they get mad and retaliate but i dont want every1 to be upset too

its easy to say 'dont let them'
but im rly vulnerable during & after an echo
i could just not say anything
but i would feel bad about it

so idk
its so infrequent
& hard to predict

how can i figure out who i am when im filled with other ppls memories?

i think u have to let ppl feel how they feel when it happens ofc but like

idk it should b their choice if ur worried about their reaction or how theyll treat u?

like tell ppl that its a thing that might happen if theyre gonna hang w/ u. if they know that & then decide to stick around, then they accept the risk & then its their problem too. u dont have 2 feel bad about a thing u cant help if they choose to let it happen, if u get me

do u write them down when they happen?

if i do then then when should i tell some1? right away? its not common but its a risk all the time so idk
should i make a network post?

like 'hi sometimes i pass out and experience some of ur memories if thats not ok send me a pic ill avoid u'
?

write what down? the visions?

ummm theres probably not a strict deadline for that sort of thing. id base it more on the kind of vibe u get from first impressions w/ them. the echo happened just once in all the time weve hung out, so its not like every day rite? so maybe if u think u will be around some1 a lot, let them know.

its pretty personal so it wouldnt b fair to expect u to like broadcast it to strangers

and ya u should write the visions down. track them. its a way to make sure theyre separate from ur own

sometimes it happens the 1st time i meet some1
actually it usually happens like that

its easy 2 tell which memories are other ppls but sometimes hard to tell which feelings r mine esp if they r very strong

i dont want to write them down
theyre not mine

well like i said vibe it out i guess. only u get to decide that kind of thing. i just dont like the alternative of never seeing ppl. thats just hiding from ur problems

write down the feelings then. i think it helps 2 write it out, gather ur thoughts or w/e. anything to separate from just ur head

its my soul ignoring boundaries of other souls
its bad i think
people cant consent to it if they dont know its a risk
im thankful it helps me save ppl but
i think i maybe hate it a little

idk
i feel like im not allowed
they arent my memories you know??
they arent mine to feel
so i stuff them away and ignore them but they seep out sometimes

ur allowed to hate it if thats how u feel. its not a great thing 100% of the time so hate it whatever % its not great, if u get me

i dont think theres anything wrong with writing it down and keeping it to urself. if u were gonna broadcast it over the network then thatd be a problem, but i cant see u doing that. theyre not ur memories but u have to carry them, so ur in the same boat as whoever the memory came from. so try it out in secret, see if it helps any

i kinda get u
the whole blood loss thign is +10 difficulty 2 everything
0/10 ☆☆☆☆☆

i will try it & see
but will wait until hands r not all shaky

ya go back 2 sleep lol im impressed you were this coherent as it is

go at ur own pace even when u feel better

i got a bunch of sleep since i 1st texted u
6 hrs or more
im coherent enough to beat up a primal if i had 2 its just my body is lol no
im getting tired again already
so much sleep
😫😫😫😫😫😫

yes v menacing im sure the primals would piss themselves. try in another 6 hrs maybe

goodnight u nerd

the suns up

good morning u dork ☀️

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wtf i never got this notif!!

dw too rude

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