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Noctis Lucis Caelum ([personal profile] carbungle) wrote2025-09-05 12:18 pm
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[personal profile] blindedbyloyalty 2021-01-07 07:35 am (UTC)(link)
[ They stay together, quiet like that for a couple of minutes. Ignis would've been comfortable just holding onto Noctis if that's what he needed, he wouldn't have pried too hard into it. He feels Noctis shifting his head and he lifts his own up while Noct readjusts, then he rests his cheek back down comfortably back on top of Noctis' head.

Ignis remains quiet while Noctis speaks up and stays that way even when he's done. He's feeling a few things here and he needs a moment to get his thoughts together, while he does so, he gets his legs up on the bed, taking great care not to disturb Umbra in the process. He feels his way to the bed's backboard, never letting go of Noctis in the process, getting them both comfortable. ]


It's good to hear, [ he says gently, feeling that wave a relief wash over his body and mind. From what he recalls from their previous conversation, Noctis had more or less accepted his fate, which has made Ignis think that he's been ready to sacrifice himself for the world. ] no one wants to die, Noct. I'll be a lot more worried about you if you didn't feel afraid.

[ It's breaking his heart to hear Noctis in this state of distress though. Noctis carries a heavy burden on his shoulders and that alone isn't fair. Ignis too, has been carrying that weight on his shoulders, just the knowledge of Noctis' fate since Altissia. Ignis never wanted to pressure Noctis into talking about it, he'd always left his own door open for him to come to Ignis with. Perhaps this sudden brush of death got Noctis into talking about it. One can think that can be ready, but they really may not be.

Ignis had been ready to sacrifice his own life when he'd used the ring to rescue Noctis, but he hadn't wanted to die. He'd be lying to himself that there had been a small part of him afraid, terrified to leave Noctis like that. He's been forgiven for his actions from back then, that was one of the roughest talks they had when he'd first gotten in.

Ignis wants nothing more but to find a way to save his friend, but he can't make promises that he can't keep. He's terrified out of his mind that he'll fail in that, that even with the huge time window, that he'll fail Noctis. But he has to try, he has to find a way to rescue both Noctis and the world of Eos. ]


Noct, [ surprised at his own tone coming over rattled, shaken and understandably so. He would've lost Noctis if Pyra and Ardyn hadn't done what they did. ] you know I'll try to find a way to save you, that much I can promise you.

[ Noctis has been this constant comfort in his life and it terrifies him to think of losing him in that way, in any way. A world without Noctis in it is a terrifying thing, which is why he'd been happy to hear Noctis' voice when he first got in. If Ignis ever goes home again, he has to wait an awful long time for Noctis to come out of the crystal, just to say goodbye, but he doesn't want to. He's not ready, gods, he's not ready to say that farewell, he doesn't think he'd ever be.

Ignis is attempting to cradle Noctis against his chest, as if to protect him from the outside world for a while. This is a talk that they've been needing to have and he knows deep down that it can't be fixed with a single conversation. There's no real solution here, he feels, the only thing he can do is try to be here for whenever Noctis needs him this way again.

He doesn't have a solid answer as to how Noctis is supposed to do this for the world. Particularly since Ignis has been pushing that thought out of his mind, he's been enjoying their time together here. He has yet to accept what's to come himself, that's also playing a factor into the not knowing what to say or do to that comment.

He takes another moment just to think about it, exhaling softly. ]
I'm sorry, [ not liking not having an answer to this, he's always had an answer at least to whatever issue Noctis may be facing no matter how big or small. But he can't come up with one now. ] I... I don't know how you're supposed to do this for the world. [ His tone quite shaken still as he tightens his grip further. But maybe that's answer that he can't give, maybe that's something that Noctis has to find for himself. No one can have answers all of the time.

Right?

Ignis just hopes that this is enough to help Noctis through his fear. He hasn't heard his friend this shaken in a long, long while. ]
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[personal profile] blindedbyloyalty 2021-01-09 03:46 am (UTC)(link)
[ It helps him to hear that his words helped out Noctis like this. When Noctis arms tighten around him, he exhales a breath, they haven't held each other like this in a long, long time. They haven't needed each other this badly in quite the while either.

Ignis is quiet for a couple of moments, letting his own feelings shine through now. ]


You're safe and alive, [ his own tone still quite rattled, but he's trying to hold back his fears. Trying to, but failing. ] It gave me quite the fright to hear that you almost died, Noct.

[ He can't see, he wishes he could see Noctis right now, but the feel of him in Ignis' arms is enough. To feel and hear his voice, to know that he's still here. Not well, but still in one piece. He recalls telling Pyra the exact same thing, while it did help him too, he still worried.

They trust each other so much, Ignis knows that he can trust Noctis with his life. If had gone with Ardyn back in Altissia, there's no doubt in his mind that Noctis would've risked life and limb just to get to Ignis. He doesn't doubt that.

Noctis' last words give him another pause. ]


I know. [ The vision he'd gotten in Altissia hadn't been kind at all, the words were harsh. It won't stop him from trying, otherwise... ]

I can't accept it, I'm sorry. [ his voice carrying more meaning here now, but still shaken. ] If I accept it, it means that I've given up and I can't, I won't...

I refuse to give up on you.

[ Going up against those gods, he's in for a long, long road and his answer might be a needle in a haystack for all he knows. But if there's a slim chance that he can save Noctis, he has to try. He won't give up, not as long as he has anything to say about it.

It kills him on the inside that Noctis has to do this, think about his fate like this. He's family and it stings Ignis to know that a valued member of his family might have to sacrifice himself like this. ]
Edited (typo :C) 2021-01-09 03:48 (UTC)
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[personal profile] blindedbyloyalty 2021-01-10 07:40 am (UTC)(link)
[ He'd heard the fear in Pyra's tone when she told him about it, she was there while it was going down, he can image her fear. He'd felt it himself when Noct's been in trouble before so he understands. And Ardyn too for what he did. Ignis knows that fear quite well.

The next words out of Noctis mean so much to him, he felt that wave of relief yet again. He'd been worried that he might be forced to accept it, but he doesn't have to. ]


That means a lot, coming from you. [ Undeniably, it helps to hear those words. He's always been the protector of the pair, but it feels like that they're protecting one another from their worst fears right now with words of reassurance.

Ignis pauses at that last comment. ]
If... we get there, you'll have to remind me. [ He knows himself better than that, that he'll feel guilty about it anyway, but he'd feel much worse if he didn't try anything at all. Ignis will need the gentle reminder that it isn't his fault. ]
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[personal profile] blindedbyloyalty 2021-01-10 07:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Ignis wouldn't think Noctis pitiful for feeling the way how he does, no one should have to prepare for something like this.

Ignis finds himself starting to tremble too at those last words, he turns his face to bury himself on top of Noctis' head, letting the tear roll down his cheek. ]


I.... I don't know. [ This is all he's known, being Noctis' advisor, friend and brother. He doesn't know what he'll do without Noct in his life and it isn't something that he's prepared for in the slightest.

He exhales a shaky breath as he desperately clings to his friend now. ]
Thinking of a thing like that is terrifying.

[ His tone going horribly broken as he keeps talking. ] I don't know what I'll do without my oldest friend. [ He's trying to hold on, but he's failing now, starting to fall apart. His breath hitches in his throat as a knock forms back there, not trusting himself to speak up now. Gods, he doesn't want to cry, but maybe he needs to. ]
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[personal profile] blindedbyloyalty 2021-01-11 03:33 am (UTC)(link)
.... It's okay, [ finding it within himself to speak up, despite the knot that he feels in his throat. ] No need to apologize... you're just looking out for me.

[ Ignis knows that if he fails, it'll be a long, long time before he can recover from the loss. His heart wouldn't be able to take it though, not when Noctis is family to him.

Feeling Noct shiver against him only gets Ignis to re-shift his grip and squeeze his friend tighter as he, himself, starts to cry quietly. Tears leaking down his face as he trembles a bit himself, his breathing quick and short, just as Noct's hand been earlier. ]


You're family to me, [ he says quietly while he breaks apart. It hurts, gods, does it hurt.

He originally came in to check in with Noctis to see how he was doing, but it got turned into this heavy conversation and one he's glad to be having. It's, without a doubt, helping the pair. ]
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[personal profile] blindedbyloyalty 2021-01-11 06:41 am (UTC)(link)
[ He listens quietly to Noctis speak, but he catches the tone in Noct's voice, his breath catching. He knows that Noct is trying to help him, but honestly, they need to do this together. ]

Noct, don't [ his own breath catching ] don't hold back.

[ Despite falling apart himself, he starts to rub a hand on Noctis' back, as if to coax the tears out of him too. Ignis knows how much this is hurting Noctis. They need to fall together so they can get back up again. ]
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[personal profile] blindedbyloyalty 2021-01-11 07:59 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Once upon a time ago, they were little kids and he can't recall the first time he'd let Noctis break down on him like this. They were kids and it was over the simplest things, then the Marilith attack had happened to Noctis. He can recall many a time when his friend had needed Ignis' safety and comfort, to be shielded away from the world and the pain that it brought him.

Then there was the stress and worry over his dad dying, but it became a moot point after they left Insomnia. Lady Lunafreya's death had hit Noctis hard too, but Ignis had given him space to deal with his own grief, but Ignis himself had quite the baggage on him too. Keeping using the ring hidden, keeping the vision of Noct's fate a secret. Ignis hadn't known how to help then, other than to give Noctis space.

I have to.

No, he doesn't have to hold back, Ignis can hear the struggle in Noctis' tone not to break apart, feel his body trembling quite badly against his. Then Noctis' grip tightens around Ignis to where it's a little painful, but he can take it. He can suffer through a little bit of pain, just as long as it helps out Noctis. The tears hit his shoulder while his friend breaks down on him, the sobs breaking free.

It's all Ignis needs to break apart freely himself, the first sob breaking loose out of his own chest.

It'll be okay. Things will work out. Things that he he'll say in situations such as these, but how can he now? He can Ignis be sure that things will be okay when they're both scared to death of the future? Noctis almost died on top of that.

He doesn't say anything, but strengthen his own hold over Noctis.

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It takes a little bit for Ignis to calm down, his breathing returning to normal, the shaking lessening up. The tears are still dripping off his chin. His grip over Noctis turns from a desperate needing one back into his protective one. He rubs at Noctis' back and lets his own hand cradle the back of Noct's head, hoping to sooth him in a comforting way.

There's no need to be strong right now, even the strongest person would break apart over things like this. Ignis doesn't think Noctis to be weak at all, he's strong, stronger than Ignis ever will be. Ignis isn't the one facing a death sentence and he holds nothing but the biggest respect for Noctis for trying to come to terms with it. ]
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[personal profile] blindedbyloyalty 2021-01-12 06:45 am (UTC)(link)
[ Noctis is calming down, but he's still crying- feeling the wetness on his shirt and the inhales he's hearing. Ignis isn't much better, tears still rolling down his own cheeks, unable to stop them himself.

Don't be afraid to let us share the load. He'd once told Noctis, but he'd been hypercritical back then, he couldn't even share the load himself, burden down by what he did and knew. He's not alone anymore in that. With everything out in the open, they can talk about this freely even if it hurts them both. He'd been scared to speak up back then too, still processing the vision, but telling Noctis back then would've broken him. He'd been afraid of that so he kept quiet to protect his friend. It was only after the crystal snatched him that something broke inside Ignis, he regretted not speaking up. After he got here, he opened up finally.

I'm tired.

Ignis shifts when Noctis slumps against him, letting his hand move to Noctis' cheek, thumb brushing away the stray tears there.

He's exhausted, beyond it. He'd been taking care of Prompto then he found out about Noctis and his near death experience. He'd pushed himself harder to take care of the pair, despite Pyra's help. Sitting still isn't his style when two of his loved ones are bedridden like this. This talk they had, while it had helped, undeniably had hurt them as well. Ignis does wish that he hadn't gotten that vision in Altissia, if given the choice, he use the ring over and over again just to not have this knowledge.

What did I just see? A vision of what's to come? Disbelief was his first reaction then, but he hadn't time to think about it, not with Noctis' life on the line. A small part of him is glad that he has this knowledge though, it gives him a goal to work towards while his friend is stuck in the crystal for... a long time. It helps to have someone that he can talk to, even if that someone is the one that has to sacrifice himself.

Asking Noctis if he's alright isn't the right call here, they're not alright. Crying, it's a start for a healing process he hopes. It isn't good to keep those tears locked in, even he knows that. ]


You'll never be alone in this, [ the shakiness finally gone out of his tone, replaced by a comforting one. ] and never forget how strong you are, Noct.

[ He knows though, just how exhausted Noctis must be after breaking down and after everything else. He still needs to rest, but Ignis isn't up to leaving his friend's side, not after crying on each other like that. They still need the comfort of each other's embrace. ]
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[personal profile] blindedbyloyalty 2021-01-12 07:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Ignis isn't laughing and he never will with something as serious as this. He'll never leave Noctis' side, always loyal to his friend. Between everything that's happened, this really shook Ignis to his core.

He leans a little into Noctis' touch on his cheek then he hears those three words.

He's stunned speechless, completely floored. He knows that Noctis cares about him, he's felt it through his friend's actions. Noctis is a show, don't tell when it comes to his feelings. He suspects Pyra might have something to do with this, considering what she said to him at the wedding. Pyra described them to be best friends and family and she's not wrong in that.

A long time ago, Regis asked Ignis to stand by Noctis to be his friend and brother, but this is his choice that he's making now. This is his decision to care about Noctis the way he does. They've known each other since they were little kids, always by one another sides, how can they not care for each other?

What he's starting to realize how much he needed to hear that, he'd been okay with feeling it from Noct's actions alone and it was enough. But to hear it is leaving him feeling incredibly touched. ]


Noct... [ surprised a bit at the stray tear rolling down his cheek from how touched he feels. ] I love you, too.

You're my oldest friend and family, my brother. [ Perhaps it's time that they start reminding each other with this, telling one another just how much they care. Noctis is special to him, one of the most important person that he holds dear in his life. Ignis will hang onto this, always. ]

... Lie back with me? [ He'll stay until Noct falls back into sleep. ]
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[personal profile] blindedbyloyalty 2021-01-12 09:07 pm (UTC)(link)
[ This is, by far, one of the most important talks that they've had and they've broke down together. It's a start to get them to heal and with the heartfelt confessions coming out of them, it's another start, a reminder just how they care for one another.

Noctis pulls away and Ignis moves with him, feeling his way on the bed as he settles down next to Noctis. He twinges their fingers together, listening quietly as Noctis drifts off into sleep. Ignis still needs to check up on Prompto, but he can afford a light nap here, after everything that's transpired between the pair...

He shifts a bit again, carefully getting his body to press up against Noctis', shoulder to shoulder, wanting to be close. They're not strangers to this, sharing tents and hotel rooms, and they were kids. Sharing a bed isn't anything new, it's familiar and a comfort to Ignis.

It doesn't take him long to fall into a light doze here, slipping into a light sleep. ]